When You Were Away

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Daddy when you were away in Iraq I missed you so much.

I can remember when you called on your birthday, if I’m not mistaken; I was so eager to speak with you. I had been practicing singing to you for your birthday.

I got on the phone and sang Happy Birthday to you, of course in my own way. Man… I missed you so much.

Daddy when you were away, things were not the same. Mom lacked in giving us attention. I felt neglected, she was always in the streets.

Daddy when you were away, I met a new friend my age and we got along so well, but mama met a friend too! (the father)

Daddy when you were away I knew something wasn’t right, mama sneaking around and spending the night.

Phone calls early in the day and late at night, I was young but I wasn’t that DUMB… Putting 2 and 2 together.

Daddy when you were away mama asked me did I like being with him and his daughter and I said yes. She asked me do I want her to leave you. Daddy I was so confused. I told her I had fun with them and I liked them, but I really didn’t know.

Daddy when you were away mama blamed it all on me, gave me an ultimatum… I thought it was my fault that what was broken couldn’t be fixed.

Daddy when you was away mama moved everything out the house. All she left you was a pub table with 2 chairs, a recliner and your clothes.

Daddy I asked her why was those the only things she was going to leave, she just said you will be ok. My eyes started to run and I cried for you daddy.

I couldn’t believe how she could do this to you. She took it all and left you with nothing. Not even a bed to sleep in.

Daddy when you was away I cried and cried. Things seemed ok at first but then they weren’t.

Eventually I lost my way and began to stray, stray away from all that I knew, and only relied on what I saw and was going through.

Daddy I can remember the times you went away and when you returned we were all there greet you and hug you and show you just how much we missed you. We were all happy.

Daddy when you came back, we were not there….. we were not waiting when arrived. I’m sorry…

Daddy you came home to an empty house as if there was no trace of you ever having a family. I’m Sorry

I can remember you came over and tried to work it out, but mama refused.

I remember looking out my window and seeing you leave, you stood against the truck and cried. All I wanted was for you to be alright, I can remember I cried myself to sleep that night.

Daddy I felt all your pain, and I’m sorry. We all went through some things but this is only a part of my story. I love you

Understanding Parents

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We have all been to the point where we just don’t understand our parents; let alone them trying to understand us, but now that I am older with kids of my own, I understand.

I am the oldest of 2 brothers. I have been listening to them complain constantly……

One of them expects everything to be handed to him, and gets mad when it’s not.                                                                         The other Thinks his father is too hard on him and always Nags at him.

Well Guess what? There is a reason for His Madness!

The way I see it is He just wants you both to Grow into Mature hard working men that depend on yourselves rather than others.

He wants you be independent rather than dependent on others.

He wants you to Be more than just a statistic, and actually make a difference.

He doesn’t just hand you everything because he want you to know what it feels like to work for what you want and need.

He wants you to be better than he was.

He wants you to Know the struggle before you ACTUALLY struggle.

Just look at the bigger picture and realize that there is more to it than what meets the eye. Our parent or parents Push us so we can strive in this Screwed Up society. 

They just want us to be prepared and able to take on anything that may come our way.

You don’t see it now but trust me, eventually you will and when you do, I’m going to be right there to tell you I told you so and there is always a reason for the Madness!